Recipient of the Korean pity prayer

I had a surprisingly lovely dinner with my mom the other night. Not once did she criticize what I had worn to work or tell me that my hair needed to be washed. I thought, "Maybe I should hang out with her more than once a month for an hour."

Then on the drive home we were discussing what a good mother my sister is and I decided to throw it out there. "You know by now," I said, "that you shouldn't expect that from me, right?" staring straight ahead. "I mean, you realize I don't really believe in marriage and all that. I could probably adopt a little Chinese baby one day as long as it's potty trained and can feed itself, has a job..."

She cut me off.

"At bible study every week all the members say one thing they would like the group to pray for for them." I rolled my eyes so far back in my head I actually saw my brain. "I asked them to pray that Son Ya had an easy labor and then they asked if there was anyone else we wanted pray for; I told them I had a 30 year old daughter who wasn't married."

At this I couldn't help but laugh. Not a quiet chuckle to myself but a full out burst of laughter. She was not amused.

"Kim!" she said hitting me in the arm which Koreans are known to do. "They couldn't believe it," she said. "30 years old and not married? They asked what was wrong with you. We prayed that you would find a good husband."

It doesn't surprise me that she wants so badly for me to get married. She's Asian, it's their thing. If she could have she would have bound my feet and arranged my marriage a long time ago. She has actually told me on more than one occasion that I can't take care of myself and need someone to look after me. What gets me is that, after all these years, she won't let it go and chalk it up to a lost cause. Instead she turns to her God for help.

Does this God have nothing better to do than concern himself with my love life? Seriously? There is famine and there are wars going on but God's going to set those things aside and focus on finding me a mate. I am so fucking special.

Is it wrong that I now want to stay single for the rest of my life out of spite?